more introverted me

from “6 Illustrations That Show What It’s Like in an Introvert’s Head”

I’ve been wondering why my blog here has been so quiet over the last couple years (outside of NaBloPoMo) — especially since this used to be the space where I would take so much time to process and write about what I was thinking/going through in my life. I initially thought my lack-of-posting was due to being too busy, or the fact that it’s easier to throw a thought on social media than it is to post a blog entry, but …

I think the primary reason why I’m no longer posting so much here is due to how my personality has been changing to be more inward in nature.  My shift from an E[xtravert] to an I[ntrovert] is finally complete. I’m just not that outward when it comes to processing what I’m thinking inside.

Now granted, part of my posting hesitancy is due to knowing that there be trolls who stalk me online (hi!!), but even beyond this oft-neglected blog space, I’m finding that I’m just not that vocal with others about what I’m thinking about.

Beyond my therapist (who I only check in with a couple times a year), I’m just not that talkative about what goes on with me. Maybe it’s just easier to get someone else to do the talking, because I do like to listen & help. But I can’t help but think that this inward drive I’ve been experiencing over the last little while isn’t helping me out as much as I think it is.

3 thoughts on “more introverted me”

  1. I was looking at old blog archives the other day and saw how quiet I’ve become over the years, too. I think I should start posting a bit more. Not the every day thing I used to do, but something once in a while like sharing an adventure I’ve been on. I think I am more expressive of myself in my photography and adventures. Some of the posts I’ve written have been ways to better understand where I am at the moment. Others are just stupid random stuff that I think I post more for the fun of it. I mean, who cars if my dog ate butter? Probably no one, but I thought it was funny and someone else might.

    Sorry about the trolls. They are the worst.

  2. I just did a wayback machine look-up for my old blog (prior to forgetting to renew my domain registration), and came across a post which linked here. Like Shawn, part of my reasoning for not blogging so much has to do with my stronger interest (and now work) in photography, but also, I became considerably less interested in sharing so much after my mother began reading my stuff and misinterpreting stuff.

    I attempted to turn the blog to a photoblog only, but I kinda fell off that routine. Anything that I have felt compelled to write about, I’ve posted either at Medium or at Cowbird, while leaning lately to the former.

    I have wanted to blog anonymously so that I could share more private thoughts without the risk of hurting anyone or , as in the case of my mother, being misconstrued, but I figured no one would read it. At the time that I came across your blog, you were single in the world, and more able to say whatever you wanted whenever you wanted without the fear of hurting or exposing or upsetting anyone (aside from your parents and long-ago friends perhaps), so, I wouldn’t be surprised if being in relationships has something to do with it.

    Also… time. Your time is more valuable to you now, so quick hits on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram are probably all you really need to put out in the world at this time.

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