1st day of Xmas holidays!

photo(8)And only 2 days until the big day – which means I’ll be frantically wrapping Emma’s presents tonight and tomorrow night, but that’s how it usually goes.

December was a busy month, but then again, most months these days seem to be busy ones. Between final exams, Christmas parties, Emma’s winter singalong concert (featuring an absurdist version of the play Peter and the Wolf), work, and the occasional sleep — December is feeling a bit of a blur.

I’m struggling this holiday season to keep the cheer. I’ve had moments of it, but then there’s a hit of reality that too often follows, and I’m back to feeling Grinch-y and unappreciated.  It’s difficult to even vocalize this struggle, because I know it sounds whiny and ungrateful of all the good things I DO have in my life (and I know that #firstworldproblems applies to much of what I’m dealing with here).

But still, I’m not as content as I’d like to be this holiday season, and I wish there was something more I could do about it, other than beat myself up for it.

Ah well. I have a little girl who is SO EXCITED for the big day that she’s already talking about waking us up at the crack of dawn to open presents that Santa (!!) will bring. Maybe I’ll work harder to look at this time of the year more through her eyes, rather than the tired and resentful eyes of her 36 year old mama.

EDIT: Turns out today is Festivus, so maybe my “airing of grievances” is excusable, if only for today.

Emma and BFF Daphne, meeting Santa

Emma and BFF Daphne, meeting Santa

Our "family portrait"

Our “family portrait”

Mama's new ornament

Mama’s new ornament

No time to blog, because …

 

I’ll be one of the facilitators for the OWL course at the Unitarian Centre.  Can’t wait!

Happy Chanukah!

 

From Twitter: @GladstoneCFRE – Mother was explaining to her son miracle of #Chanukah but kid didn’t understand. So she said, imagine you charge #iphone and it lasts 8 days.

Last night (or: what I wish I was doing again tonight)

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Instead of seeing the lovely David Tennant in glorious 3-D, I’m catching up on a neglected house, marking student speeches, and bulldozing my way through a terrifying pile of student research reports.

My students today told me of a way to cheat sleep: a “Nappachino” — slam a coffee, then nap for 15 minutes, wake up AWAKE. It’s 9:30, and I’ve got a long night ahead.

In the meantime, I’ll be listening out for the comforting wheeze of the TARDIS engines, hoping the Doctor will come whisk me away.

(so much for NaBloPoMo, eh?)

Throwback Thursday: I think this hair speaks for itself.

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You’re welcome.

A little something for me to remember

Every now and then I come across some wisdom, and I hope I can remember it when the time comes. Today’s two bits of wisdom comes to you from a friend’s Facebook feed and a mailing list I’m a part of.

From a friend’s FB page: “Dr. Carmella’s Guide to Understanding the Introverted.”  Now that I’m fully embracing the “I” in my INFP personality, I’m understanding myself a lot more. The best part of this infographic/illustration is the statement of how introverts gain their energy — rather than becoming energized from people interaction, introverts need time to recharge (mainly because we find interactions to be draining).

YES.

I also love the bit that says “interaction is just expensive and they don’t want to spend it on something annoying (read: wasteful).”

YES AGAIN.

I’m starting to give myself more permission to say no to relationships and activities that I find to be annoying and/or wasteful. Maybe it’s because I’m finding myself more and more drained? I chose a career path that forces me to be out there with people for most of the time, so when I’m home (or on the weekends), my battery levels are dangerously low. I guess I don’t want to bother myself with people who aren’t edifying and are difficult to be with.

The other item I want to remember is from last week’s “happiness tip” from Dr. Christine Carter: Quit Something. I think this tip goes pretty much hand in hand with my earlier “avoid annoying, draining people” realization — I’m trying to get better about only being involved with activities that I love and find important. If I don’t have that driving passion or investment, I’m giving myself permission to quit.

Granted, there still tends to be a lot of activities I find worthwhile and want to be a part of — but I am trying to be more selective about where and what I do with my time.

So – quit annoying people and quit annoying activities. Check.

(sounds easy to type, but I’m sure my people-pleasing tendencies will betray me more often than not)

Every-other-day NaBloPoMo

That’s what I’m celebrating here. Yeah, yeah, that’s the ticket.